november 12, 2024

Its been a while and im sorry about that. Ive been in a huge funk. I cant quite figure out what needs to happen with my meds but whatever is going on now isnt it. 

I have an appointment with a new psych next week to hopefully get away from the horrible one im seeing now. 

The highlight of my days is that i get to be in band this December. Last year i couldn't because my family's Christmas was on the day of the concert. But this year its working out that i can do it. The music is kind of hard though so I'm gonna need to practice more than normal. 

Also im a bit sad that im not sitting next to any of my friends in rehearsal. Takes a lot of fun out of it but hahaha.... Maybe the director split us up because we talk too much. 😂

Beau is loving the colder weather because he gets to wear his fleece pajamas. He gets all warm and cozy. Wants to cuddle a bunch. 

Im supposed to get a new phone soon. It would have already happened but the damn store was closed last Sunday. My current phone is the absolute worst thing. 

I have a library book due later this week and i havent finished it. Im not sure if i want to recheck it or just write down what page im on and check it out later. Im reading the Bridgerton books so i can be into the show more so i have some time to read it before the next season. In the meantime i have two books to read. One of them is a collection of three smaller books. And the other is a book published by a friend i met online like...over 20 years ago? God its been a long time since we all met in 1999.

Im really upset about the election. I cant believe Americans voted for a criminal rapist fascist wanna be dictator. Like he has all the red flags. I am scared for women and the LGBTQ community. I am scared dor immigrants and minorities. I am mostly just damn scared.

We are on the brink of civil war at this point. I fear for the safety of my friends and family. 

The people who voted for trump most likely were brain washed by Fox news. Faux News. Its funny trump hates "fake news" but his support is fox and they are the creators of actual fake news.

Tonight i planned on staying awake and playing Stardew valley but i cant get my drive up so im updating here instead.